(see.. im blogging again :) )
14. Where did most of your money go?
bills and more bills..

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
mail (from the Phil)

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
- dragostea din tea (wasn't a good year for euro pop music)
- die perfekte welle

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
happier
thinner or fatter? i refuse to answer this question :)
iii. richer or poorer? definitely poorer (im broke but i'm happy.. i'm poor but i'm wise yeaaaah!!!)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
study

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
cry over a jerk

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with the family

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
yes

23. How many one-night stands?
none

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Friends still, CSI, SATC and Pimp my ride

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
hate? noh.. dislike? yes

26. What was the best book you read?
the autobiography of marie antoinette by antonia fraser, paula by isabel allende, wild swans

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Birdland, Morse!

28. What did you want and get?
a smile from Azriel

29. What did you want and not get?
my money..

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Before Sunset

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
celebrated together with my nephew, friends and family ate like theres no tomorrow.. 22

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
if that someone paid ALL his debts to moi

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
i was a fashion victim :)

34. What kept you sane?
Azriel, Arjay (though at times he drove me to the brink of insanity) and Redbull

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
still Pitt :)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the Grasser and Gehrer issue

37. Who did you miss?
Mhiles, my sanity, conversations with Vin

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Arjay

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
from my nephew Azriel: Auntie Hilda, drink water, then you'll be ok nah.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Vienna lyrics - by Billy Joel

2004 - i have to admit, i haven't blog properly... (still convincing myself that i was way too busy to blog... in a way, twas true.. still, what a lame excuse :) )

so.. i'll somehow try to make up for those feeble posts.. PRAMIS! :P

here goes: (got this from q's from Chel... ty)

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Dined here (the firms Christmas Party), danced the Ocho Ocho with Azriel, called the police to report a theft, went to my very first lecture here,..... so many firsts....

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No and no

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes

5. What countries did you visit?
England. Czech Republic. Italy. Hungary. Switzerland

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
concentration, sleep, time oh and a looong vacation.

7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
September 12 - someone made me very happy this day
October 16 - Riels vavavavoom Bday Party
Dec. 26 - the horrible news

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
(my mind is blank - sad noh?)
perhaps, withstanding one of the partners at work

9. What was your biggest failure?
not being able to realize fast that someone is using me

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes and yes

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Every item i got from Pandorf and my ipod.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Moms, Mhailas, Arjays and Azriels

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
sheesh.

more tomorrow!!! pRAMIS

Read this song at Thomas and Simons bathroom curtain:

Welcome to my world
Won't you come on in?
Miracles I guess,
Still happen now and then
Step into my heart
Leave your cares behind
Welcome to my world
Built with you in mind
Knock and the door will open
Seek and you will find
Ask and you'll be given
The key to this world of mineI
'll be waiting here
With my arms unfurled
Waiting just for you
Welcome to my world
~ song by Jim Reeves

a deja vu?
~~~~~

The fact that i am not in a slightest bit included to any of his plans makes me feel like _ _ _ _ _.
~~~~~
Dad's flying home tomorrow... i'm going to follow right? RIGHT?!

panay panay.. panay panay...

i won't let it be just a memory.

i love this street.

the party was last saturday, (the 16th), and yeah we had a great time.

mhaila finally showed herself, glowing.. (sure am glad she's baaaack!). Anyways, this girl evolved to a singing diva.. with her own magic mic.

can't believe i'm 22 already.. and there are (still) so many things to do, to achieve, to forget, to remember, to thank for, to praise, to swallow, to discuss, to share, to enjoy, to realize, to forgive, ........ and to treasure.

i'm so happy with you-know-who.

Thank you.

hmm. i'm 22, i've got ulcer and i love to cuddle a lot.

~~~
Riel turned 3 yesterday.

i'm so blog lazy

i'm 21 and i've got ulcer.

im so not good at dating.
.

changed my blog a bit.. still have to edit my links section.
.

my boss asked me to send 745 invitations today, my DNA scattered all over the world.. finnland to the virgin islands.. soon.. i will rule the world mwahahaha! . (i need sleep.)

i sure am glad i saw this in the Albertina last year..

how can someone steal a scream?

I was walking along the road with two friends.
The sun was setting.
I felt a breath of melancholy -
Suddenly the sky turned blood-red.
I stopped, and leaned against the railing, deathly tired -
looking out across the flaming clouds that hung like blood and a sword
over the blue-black fjord and town.
My friends walked on - I stood there, trembling with fear.
And I sensed a great, infinite scream pass through nature.

half week in review: Friday to Tuesday


the miracle: the boss complimented me for my work, (he even said thank you.. told hm about it, he just grunted (!) ) / the Christening, the Kodak Party with Baby Lorenzo (ang cute ng inaanak ko!!!), Reception à la Jet Lee/ coffee and Olympics with a fellow kumpare, the long walk home/ hm laughed about my whole relationship mess, hm in real shock after i told him about the art of making ligaw/ marvin told me i should change the way i dress, my hairstyle, my schedule (im a certified jerk magnet.... still, it sure as hell feels like sh*t)/ wasted a day with self-pity.


i miss mhaila.

reread my last post.. teka nga.. why did he pick me????

sus. the poor kid.

I saw myself today in a place i'll never forget, i finally found Viennas 'oasis'. (the websites nothing compared to the actual place)
Location: Viennas old stock stockmarket, below Tricaffé. (Schottenring 16, 1010 Vienna)

After picking up Karins bouquet, i wanted to look around and i bumped into Mark.
Mark was my first 'official' bf (nyarks.. ) we were together for a month, the most awkward relationship i ever had, awkward because, we were both young, stupid (i was.. still am?), and too giddy. We talked about our current situations, and i tried to avoid talking about the past, but he was persistent.. I can barely remember the day, but according to him it was me who gave him the fright of his life. 4 years ago, on a sunny July afternoon he found me in my own pool of blood. Until now, i cannot explain my actions then, my depression was so great, it made me blind and selfish. After that incident, we started avoiding each other, i tried to put my life back in track, piece by piece, and he kept himself busy, with work and school.

almost 4 years of absolute stillness between us, of course we heard the usual chikas about one another, but we never really took them seriously.

We talked, and our conversation maybe lots of things, but it wasnt awkward. It was open, real, and refreshing. I had one great day.

In the end, he went home to his wife, i went back to work with Karins bouquet... smiling. (at least, i was)

btw, i'm going to be Ninang to his baby =)